Tuesday, July 11, 2006

I HEART my Mom


Today I have been a little teary eyed?? Why? I think that the reality of my Mom's recent heart attack has really got to me. Of course, it got to me the minute I found out, but then I was in such a fog I couldn't even think straight...the fog went on for days. You should have seen me running around the house trying to figure out what to pack. I think I got one pair of panties, three pj shirts, and one pair of capris?? WHAT? I knew I would be there for a while.....why didn't I pack better. I just kept picturing my sweet Mom in starflight and wondering what she was thinking....if she was thinking about me, Ash and Mitch, my kids, dad... or if she was unconscious. The more I thought about it the more my stomach got in knots. It still does. I just couldn't believe that this was happening again.

July 4 was just another normal day. We went swimming and did the 4th thing. I guess around 8:00 Troy and I decided to take the kids to the Lake to watch fireworks. The kids were so excited about it. When we got there..all settled...waiting for the big event, Macy decided she wanted to call Neena and Papaw. I thought that was a great idea since Mom had called earlier in the evening to wish us a Happy 4th. Macy waited patiently for Mom to answer and I heard her say... "Hi Papaw...ok here is my Mom." I thought that was odd because Dad always wants to talk to her so I had a gut feeling that something was wrong. When I got on the phone he asked if I got his message. I said no...what happened? He then told me that Mom was on her way to the Heart Hospital on StarFlight and they think she had a heart attack! WHAT?? My knees went to jelly and I didn't even hear the fireworks that were going off....I was in lala land. I was so scared and I didn't even know what questions to ask. Dad said that he didn't have too much info because he wan't at the hospital yet...he was following starflight...but he would keep me posted. (so I called Becky!! HAHA) Ash and Mitch didn't know...Dad had left messages with them, too. I told Dad I would call. That was hard. I called Ash...like 40 times she was outside with sparklers. I finally called BA's phone and told him that I need to speak to Ashley. He said is everything OK and I said No..He handed the phone to Ashley and she knew something was wrong and she said her sparkler went out and she burned her leg! HA Anyway we knew we had to go...we had to be with Mom. I called Bubs and JD answered....I was so scared to tell him...so I made JD do it! :) I told JD everything I had told Ashley and she said she would break it to Mitch. We were all so scared. We didn't know what was going on...we all felt SO far away. I wish I could have wiggled my nose and been there in a flash.

We left the firework display and went straight home and packed. Macy had fallen asleep in the car on the way home so I just left her in the car...Reid stayed in there with her... and I packed for all of us. It didn't take me long because as I said before I packed terribly! Anyway, I guess I got to Katy around midnight...picked up Ash and BA and we were off...... We made it to Austin at about 3 in the morning. It seemed like we would never make it. You know that song by Celine Dion, "We drove all night, to get to you" that's what it felt like we did! :) The coolest thing is that we arrived at the hospital the same time that Mitch did and he was coming from Abliene. It was definitely a God thing. All three of us were there....we made it. We all walked in with our pillow and blankets ready to sleep wherever as long as it was in the hospital. I slept on two chairs pushed together. Ashley slept on the little loveseat thing and Mitch slept on the floor...I hope he doesn't have hepatitis! HA And Dad slept in Mom's room...he was an awesome nurse to Mom. Never leaving her side...I told Troy to take note. :)

We took turns going in and when it was my turn(I should have went in first since I am the oldest but my sister cut) to go in I had a lump in my throat. I had been there before, same hospital, close to the same room, same smell, same monitor beeps....I walked in and there was my mom. Laying peaceful, eyes closed. I said, "Mom, I love you." And she said, "how does my hair look!!" HA! I knew then that she was going to be ok. Sick but ok. I then told her that her lipstick was still on and she was glad about that. After a heart attack, ER visit, starflight to Austin, and angioplasty her lipstick was still on (not any other make-up..it was all smeared). She said she was going to write Loreal a letter and tell them how good their 12 hour lipstick worked! ha

We did find out the next day that her heart attack was a little worse than we thought. That gave us all a big scare. She stayed there for another day...I was hoping they would keep her until we knew for sure that her heart was better and her flutters were gone. BUT...you know insurance. So, now the doctors told her she needed to watch what she eats and try to get in at least 30 minutes of exercise a day....YUCK. Who likes to exercise?? :) But it is a wake up call for all of us to take better care of our bodies. And when she is feeling better she knows that I will be calling her to make sure she got her walking in.

She had many visitors over the next day. Everyone was glad that she was ok and feeling better. Jody and Kathy came down...we were so glad. Nana and Poppi were there, of course. Mimi, Cindy, Karen and other friends from school, Becky and Tawana and lots of phone calls from friends and church. I hope I'm not leaving anyone out....All that to say how much she is loved and how wonderful of a mom, sister, daughter, wife, friend, christian, etc that she is.

I know I left out a lot of the week but my thoughts and emotions are all jumbled up. I'm not the best writer. I DID NOT take after my mom on having the gift of being a good writer. I guess you can say I am a better talker. So, I'm with Mom that if you want the gory details you can call me! HA

Mom, I love you more than you will ever know. My life would not be complete without you in it you are my rock. You are the world to me and my family and always will be. I'm so glad that God heard our prayers and healed your body. You are still, as always, in our daily thoughts and prayers. We are truly a blessed family. I love you!

Now, mom...go take a nap.

"Her children arise and call her blessed: her husband also, and he praises her." Proverbs 31:28